Down and Out

So, I was saying in previous posts that yervoy has been sapping the life out of me. I have been really sick with nausea and losing weight. I have been resting most of the day throughout the last couple weeks because I do not want to up chuck anything. With so much time laying around, I have been having a pity party for myself. I have been upset over this diagnosis. Emotionally drained thinking that, I will have a reoccurrence at anytime. I am paranoid and depressed. I keep on reading blogs of others who are so positive and have such a strong faith in God. I doubt my health especially at this time because I am so weak now. I think I am going to die from this awful disease although I have had clear scans.

Lord, Give me faith to do your will and accept your plan for me.