The Face-kini

I have a little bit of frustration with those  in the overall American society that recognize beautiful and healthy as tan. Tanning in the solar fry beds of tanning salons and the good old fashion baby oil in the sun is harmful despite the numerous media campaigns contributed by cancer-fry industry. With that being said, I have a product solution to solve those tan and burn campaigns.

Introducing the Face-ikini:

The Chinese created this contraption to solve exposure to the skin. So, I hope all you will enjoy the new ski mask for the pool.

Another Treatment and Skin Scan!

I had another treatment today. It was a little unpleasant in comparison to the initial treatment. I had a wee bit of a headache the entire time and it didn't help that I had cabin fever going on the entire time.

In all though, I have reason to be excited because they cut nothing out of me with my skin scan! I was completely nervous going in there especially in my moodiness. I get more and more crabby every doctor's appointment. I guess I just need some peace of mind. Eventually, it will come to me.

Limitations!

I have been completely paranoid lately and man does it really get me into a funky mood. I am constantly and consistently checking my skin throughout the day. (I need to just get rid of all my mirrors.) This nervousness is overwhelming and frustrating at points. I need to get to the point in reviewing my health in letting go and letting God.

The control factor that I have in the illness is very limited. I will not know if I will be here in the next year or in the next twenty. Right now, I need to put my faith in the one who saves but to be honest. I doubt. I am fearful and come down upon myself that I will not win this fight between my faith and my desire for self-preservation. 

On an update, I finished my first treatment if the trial drug Yerzoy. Other than, the feeling of itchiness at points and one swollen lymph node, I feel pretty much the same. I have an appointment with the dermatologist Wednesday and Thursday is treatment day.

Yerzoy Treatment

I have not posted in quite sometime for a newly diagonosee. Its been since April, I have been apart of this disease. And two surgeries later and some gaining in patients, I think I feel a calm acceptance. Melanoma is always in the back of my mind. I have that constant paranoia of another re-occurrence some where else on my skin or in my body but I have the strength and faith that all is in God's will and Providence and what does not kill me only makes me stronger.

I had my first treatment of Yerzoy last Thursday. It was quite exciting to know this medicine may be the next promising drug for future melanoma patients in Stage IIIB. The hospital staff was very nice and friendly. I have had very little side effects practically none at all. Its kinda strange that I have this drug in my body but little residual effects. I keep on wondering is this stuff actually going to work. I guess I will know in the future.

My treatment schedule was mailed to me today. I have excitement on received this and I also am nervous. The transfusion of drugs does not bother me. Its those darn scans. I would have to admit anytime I see the word scan on a piece of paper with my name along with it. I get that scansxiety terror. I hope soon I will over come that debilitating disease soon.